This Is Why I'm Pissed!

I'm SOOO pissed! I swear today has just gone from bad to worse...But I'mma get to that in a minute.

First, let me back track. So I went to this comedy show ting on Saturday night-and it was an ABSOLUTE waste of money!!! The head comedian was a guy called Felix Dexter. He was a funny man back in the day in a comedy show called 'The Real McKoy'...he hasn't really been about since the show....and I was sure he wouldn't be all that funny, but what the heck! The tickets were buy one get one free-so at £4.50 per ticket it wasn't all bad....yeah right! I can't remember how many acts there were, but as well as the comedians, there was a poet and a rapper. So we got to the club about 15 minutes late-and Felix was already up, doing his set. He wasn't totally crap-I laughed a couple times, but it was more a short giggle than anything else. The poet was this dude-I think he was about 20 or so, he was really good. He had some deep lyrics! There was this angry dude named Maverick-he was a seriously angry black man! It was too deep! There was one other comedian that was really good. The rest of the acts were terrible! One lady who was soooo bad-seriously, if she was my mum I'd die from embarrassment! Another dude came on, and he was 10x worse than anyone else! The crowd was talking over him-it was so bad...that he handed back the mic to the MC early, cos he was so crap, and no one was interested. Finally, there was this white rapper/MC chick...who rapped about something or another, and then did some next track called 'this is why I'm broke' on the backing of 'This is why I'm hot'. She was alright-had a couple funny lyrics but it went on for TOO long!!! So when the show FINALLY finished, it was party time! Got hyped for some tunes, cos I haven't had a good raving night out in soooo long...then the DJ-shit as he was- started playing all these bait tunes- JE- where the party at..? J-Kwon -Tipsy! This rave was meant to go on until 3-but we left at about 12.

By this point, I'm out ready for bed! But my SFAM & LF wanted to go on to another club. Went to Brixton, and stopped by Z Bar. Now it's 12.30-Z get's soo rammed, so if you're not there early, wherever you stand, you'll be in the way of traffic, and there's nothing I hate more than being pushed constantly, and hearing tunes that I can't dance to cos there's no ruddy room! Now, as I'm not driving, and the majority was ruling, we went to Z-the bouncer said that it was shutting in half an hour-so it was pointless. Drove around the corner to another club called 'Fridge bar' This place is a TOTAL sweat box! My hair was down-and is bout ready for a touch up-and I KNOW it wouldn't have been able to withstand any heat! Again, all i wanted to do was go bed! My LF wanted to know how much it was etc, and my SFAM nominated me to ask the bouncers...I was unimpressed, cos it's like-'Why do I have to go? I don't even wanna go to this place anyway' but me being me, I said nothing, and went to the bouncer. It was £10 to get in and finished at 4.45. Great! I JUST WANNA GO HOME! My LF attempts to park, but there's no space so we head back home. Inside I'm soooo happy, but I don't let it show! Those 2 decide that they are not done for the night and head on to another club-I opt out...I'm not tryna be rubbed on by old men old enough to be my dad! No thanks! So I get in my Smartie, and go home!

Sunday- went to my nephews school fair. It was a good day out with all the fam-I've got pics, but heck if I know how to put em on here!

So today, I woke up in a pissy mood-dunno why! Got to work-there's no damn parking spaces for my car, so I had to park my Smartie around the corner, half on and off the kerb! Was NOT impressed! Again, I'm the only on my team in the office, so there's shit loads of work to do-pissed!! Go to have my cereal-there's only milk in the fridge from last week-pissed! Ok, I'll just go to the shop and get more right....wrong! The stupid shop only had full fat milk! Great-that's gonna help my Weight Watching isn't it?! By this point, I'm so pissed! I bought a Ribena, choc biscuits, Starburst and a packet of crisps! Fuck the weight watching crap! And fuck this no smoking malarky! Yep-I had a cigarette today-I know I know....but I just had to! I swear, I would have ripped someone's head off otherwise!!!

Leave work, and head home! Finally, the day's over...I can chill at home, and just relax. Got home, and my sister L was about to cook some chicken to have with the rice & peas that my mum cooked yesterday. I actually hate left over rice & peas, but hey-I'm not cooking, so I'mma grin and bare it! I'm upstairs, and then I decide to go down and share my dinner. I see the pot of rice & peas on the floor! So I'm like-why's it there?! Turns out the rice has gone sour, and my sister S was about to put on a pot of basmati rice. I go to my mum's room door, and stick my head in. She tells me that the rice has gone off. So I say-oh what are we gonna have with the chicken-and then she says' go and cook rice-S is cooking rice' So I say....JOKINGLY ' you lot are jokers! ' I ask you Blog fam...what does that mean...i mean REALLY mean!?! To me, not much, since I say it all the time....but anyways, she goes absolutely nuts at me! Talking bout how I don't cook blah blah blah. Granted, I don't cook very often, but if you look at it like this-I get home between 5.15 & 6. The kids are home from 3-4. My mum's home from work at about 2.30 for the kids. It's not my fault that by the time I get home, she's already cooked. She thinks it's too late to start cooking dinner for the kids at 6pm-so really how can I win!??! So she's going off-I'm wondering why she's going off like this, but I'm thinking it's whatever innit! I then think fuck it, jump in my Smartie, and head to the fish & chip shop. Get me some fish & chips-as you can tell-no watching of weight today! But I didn't even care!

Whilst in the shop, I did my good deed for the day. There was a lady in front of me, who had bought food. I watched her count all her coins to make £5. Turns out her food is £5.30. When she realises she's 30p short, she starts digging in her bag, mumbling that she couldn't do. By this point, I had already decided what I was gonna do. The lady behind the counter got my order together, and as I was about to pay, the lady was still looking for more change. So I turn to her and I say 'What do you need? 30p? I'll get that don't worry' and she was like 'no, no...' I said 'seriously, it's fine-let me get that for you'. She accepts, thanks me about a thousand times, and then heads off. She was so grateful! But see I know what it's like to be short a few pennies, and how embarrassing it can be. I didn't make a fuss of it-I had enough money spare, so it's whatever!

Ate my food, chilled in my room for the best part of the evening. I'm just so fed up now! I can't wait for August to come around, so I can get the heck up outta here! Me & my mum get like this sometimes-we just clash about everything! She wants me out-I wanna be out....so soon, we'll both get our wish!

And I'm now pissed cos this acne treatment shit that I got the other day has decided to give me a rash on my whole face. AND I'M PISSED!! This shit itches like mad!!! I'm so annoyed! More so, that it's another shit product claiming to treat acne! It's all a bunch of shit! What is being damn near 25 with acne?!?! Fuck mother nature & her stinking hormones, oil glands and every other bitch mofo that causes the bain of my existence that is ACNE!!!!!! And yeah, I know a change in diet works-I'm working on that....but come on! I've been battling this since I was like 12!! Surely it's enough now!!!

Ok-Ranting over...I'm bout to go make my salad for tomorrows much calmer, less stressed better eating-weight watching tuesday!

Pray for me people....