Still Not Smoking....

Ok, so this is the start of the full 2nd day of no smoking, and so far it's going pretty well (I use this term VERY loosely). I was talking with my friend outside work this morning, and she was smoking-so I told her that I'd have to talk to here later, cos I was very tempted to get a cigarette off her! But I'mma put my willpower to good use, and resist!

Last night, my mum decides she's going out....I'm in bed by this point. About 2 hours later, my little sister (who just turned 3) comes wondering into my room, half asleep moaning for my mum. I was like, she's not here-and then put her in my bed. That, my dear friends was the biggest mistake of the night! Lemme take you back real quick about 2 years ago, I used to share a house. I had to leave my then employment as it was a temporary job, and the contract was up. This came about 3 months before I was due to go to Cuba...so after much discussion with my mum, it was decided that I'd move back home, until after my holiday, and I'd then move again. Cos I'd been out of the family home for so long, I lost all rights to my own room! Now 2 years later, I'm still at home, sharing a room, and sleeping on a single bed...

So my sister's now in my bed....and as I've mentioned it's a single bed. Now on the weekends, I don't mind her kipping in with me, but NOT when I've got work the next day!!!! This girl had her feet all up in my head, I was hanging off the bed at many points during the night....I barely slept! And then she had the CHEEK to wake up at 5.30 talking bout she wants tea. I just told her to go downstairs and ask her mum star! A wha yu tek dis ting fa? She's a joker-I swear down.....she's had a good sleep, and now wants me to interrupt my already broken sleep to go downstairs throughout the cold house (cos it's June, and no it's not meant to be summer cos this is England after all!) to make tea! Get outta here!! She promptly fell asleep after that, and didn't wake up until I did an hour and a half later...

Speaking of crusty weather, there's been FLOODING in parts of England. 4 people have DIED..I mean, what kinda crap is that? Technically it's summer, so there should be some sun...ha-fat chance! Rain, rain and more rain. Thankfully though, London isn't flooding, but fuck me if it isn't depressing as hell!! I've already decided that I wasn't made for England- I need to be in warmer climates-I'm just built like that, so I know I'm not retiring in the United of Kingdom.....!

Two of my girlies came back from holiday yesterday. They went to Malia, and from what I'm hearing it was nothing hype! Pure heads from around the way were there...fights everyday, and on the Monday one boy got glassed in the face, and another got stabbed...but the highlight of the holiday was chilling with Heartless Crew-they're a sound/crew....they were really big back in the day, but you don't really hear much of them these days, but they're sick nonetheless....old skool garage was the shit!!!!!

On other news- I broke it off with Mr Man. The post that I had a few days ago (Rambling, Ranting, Raving.)(dunno how to get it as a link) where I had all those questions & Black Southern Girl said maybe I should let it go....and since then I'd been thinking alot about the situation....and it was yesterday that I realised that I wasn't happy with the way things were. So I text him telling him that I wasn't happy, and that our situation wasn't working....Haven't heard back from him, but then there's that possibility that he didn't get it....and besides I guess breaking up over text is a punk ass thing to do right..? So I'm gonna call him tonight, and tell him, but be strong, cos it's hearing his voice that makes me forget I was mad & shit....I hate to do this, but to be honest I hate the feeling that my life is just dangling mid air-like I can't move forward cos everythings so unsure....I mean, how do you break up with someone???? I swear I chose the wrong time to quit!

I need a cigarette!! Just drank a cuppa tea (cos I'm a Brit of course), and usually following a cuppa, is a cigarette....but not today....cos I'm quitting.....*going to kick rocks* (Thanks C.I lol)