Hey Shawty! What It Do?

I absolutely love that greeting! That and What it do Shawty-which is the same, but just rearranged! I say it all the time-so much so, that this is how my siblings & nephew now greet me!! Damn T-Pain! lol! I'm in love with the US-everyone believes I shoulda been born there! I'm hoping to move out there one of these fine days! Dunno where though, but I like sound of Philly, New York, Florida...dunno why-don't really know the first things about any of these states.....but anywho....

So right now, I'm at work-technically on my lunch break-though honestly I've spent the best part of my day reading other people's blogs!! There are some interesting and very funny people out there!!

I'm sick! I have a cold! I hardly ever get sick, so when I do-I'm really sick! Though this recent bout of gross germs isn't kicking my ass! Thank f**k for that!! As a result of having the lurgies, I haven't done anything interesting really!!

Yesterday I went to the supermarket straight from work for my granny, and then went to her house-where she fed me grilled bacon & fried plantain!! It was baaad!! I swear, no one fries a plantain like Granny!! So we're chilling, watching the soaps-that she updates me on, cos I haven't seen many for a likle while! She then starts talking about my dad!! **rolls eyes....sighs**. I mean, no disrespect to my granny-but all now I can't figure out WHY she thinks I actually care what that man says or does!!!

Anyways, she's telling me that one of my cousin's called him to install a telephone line in her bedroom-and he went down there-went to B & Q for supplies and shit and did it for her. Now when she tells me this, I'm thinking-that stooopid ass mofo!! His niece can call him, and he hops, skippidy jumps and does it-when I ask him, he tells me 'he'll see what he can do'...and well-I guess he never sees....cos he never does!!

Background: Me and my sperm donor have never really had a relationship, and this has gotten even more none existent the older I got. As a teenager-I had that typical-'I hate my mum' thing going on. I used to write in my diary exactly how much, and then one day-yep my mum found it. We had this arguement-and she was like 'oh, you hate me so much, but I'm the one that's been there....you're Dad didn't want you-he wanted me to have an abortion...' Those words cut like a knife, and has never left me. At this point, I didn't have a great relationship with my dayd, but I used to go to his house for weekends every now and then. This changed shortly after. I used to write about how much his daughter annoyed me-and stuff....my mum gave my diary to my granny, who then gave it to my aunty, who gave it to my dad....and we had a 'talk' in which he told me that he loved both me & his daughter the same and how he'd make more of an effort...yadda yadda......Please believe 15 years later-nothing of the sort!!

I used to go to my granny's every weekend-he lives literally around the corner....never saw him!! Last year, he called me and I went mad on him-told him exactly what I thought of him.....he 'apologised' promised things would be different-yep, nothing of the sort!! Turns out he was heading into the church-he's a preacher nor on summink, and he was 'rectifyig' his wrongs, by stirring up all these emotions within me that I had buried-and left me hanging. So as far as I understand, he's entered into the church with a 'clean' slate! I think it's safe to say that I hate him-yeah I know hate's a strong word, but that's how I feel-I can't help it!! Couple months ago he went to South Africa with his church (even though when he called me on my birthday-from some unknown number (he knew I wouldn't have answered otherwise) and told me he'd give me money (even though I hadn't asked) and hasn't mentioned it since) and had a 'great' time.....good ole' granny filled me in!!

Bless my granny-she's old skool, so as far as she's concerned, I'm the child, so I need to make the effort blah blah, and for a minute I tried that, but after a while you kinda realise, what am I doing this for? I don't have the time or energy to entertain fake shit! I'm better than that!! So as a result, I don't see or speak to that waste of space-though I do see his sprog every now and then! She's another one...I don't like her....or her mother.....but I'm not about to get into that!!

So after beign at Granny's I went and picked up my specs....seems I wear my contacts too often, and need to cut back, by wearing specs more. So I got me a pair of FCUK black rimmed ones that came in a really nice glasses case! got home, took out the contacts, put on the Specs.....F**K I'm blind!!! I dunno if it's cos it's a new prescription, cos I haven't worn glasses for a while or just that the optician fucked up and gave me someone else's glasses, but bwoy-I felt like I just got of the waltzer!! things looked kinda big (like bi-focals), and going down the stairs was NO fun!! I'm gonna firm it for a few days-give my eyes some time to adjust to the change....but if shit ain't no better by this time next week-those bad boys are going BACK, and somebody's gonna need to have a look!! I could never drive in those things!! I'd be an accident just waiting to happen!!!

Well anyways, right now, as I've said I;m at work. Lunch break is OFFICIALLY over-but who cares right? I've got shit loads of work to do.....not enough time to do it-though being here wasting time doesn't help.....nose is blocked....and I'm silently pissed cos my replacement N95 hasn't arrived yet-though it shoulda come between 8-1....apparently it'll come this afternoon-and it bloody better 'else T-mobs WILL hear my voice!! Cha!!

Well, I guess I better do some of what I get paid for and sort out a few accounts.....oh the joys of work!!!