Oh The Drama!

So last night, the fierce emailer called me to find out what happened! I held no bars in telling her. I told her that it's ridiuculous that after all the years of friendship that we have, we're now at a point, where no one can say anything without it turning into an arguement, there's clearly a divide within the group-it's an us and them thing. I told that I'd much rather be in smaller groups, or not go anywhere than be with all the girls, and feel like I have to be on eggshells the whole time, cos it's almost like waiting for a bomb to go off, cos it's almost guaranteed that someone will blow their top over stupidness.

She mentioned that sometimes when we have our issues, we argue and then we move on, the fact that we still have petty arguments seems like forgiveness hasn't really set in. I told her that I agreed-cos it's like something minute can be said, and that triggers in your brain that you're still upset with that person for something else that happens and the little thing that should have stayed as a little thing, then blows up to become something that it doesnt need to be!

I told her that ultimately, I can't fight a battle for 9 people, when 8 of those people are sitting back with their arms folded. Things have been mad for a little while, but no one else seemed bothered, so I'm just rolling with it. Just see what happens...apparently everyone has this fuck it attitude towards the whole friendship ting, and I can honestly say that I think it's because of the petty arguments and the back biting! It's all long. I've fully adopted the fuck it attitude. I can't be bothered with it all. All I'm doing, is being around the people that aren't on a hype ting, who don't feel the need to get excited about every situation, and just focus on what I'm tryna do.....and if that means I dont see the others that often, then standard-it's whatever innit!