J,
For some reason, you came into my head today. And when the thought of you entered my head, my heart hurt. Why? Cos I miss our friendship. I miss the way we used to be, our conversations...I miss us.
We haven't spoken for 7 years. It's hard to believe it's been that long. Looking back, I probably did over react to the situation that was....however, my Granny was being intimidated-and that shit will never ever go down well with me. I know this was not directly because of you, however they were your people who were not invited to the wedding, and I just felt like you could have done more-they were your peoples...you could've spoke to them.
Nevertheless, we did speak after that night, but I couldn't get past it...and we fell out. You felt like I embarrassed you in public...felt I did you wrong....admittedly I could've come to you and tell you what was bothering me....but I didn't-maybe that was wrong of me.
I did try to reach out to you a few years later, but I guess you felt like there was too much water under the bridge for us to be friends again...I felt rubbish, but I accepted your decision.
Every now and then, I think of how we used to be...and I do miss it...I know no matter what, we'll never be the friends that we were....thinking of you today made me want to send you a Facebook message to say hi....but I'm not about to put myself out there, only to be rejected.....so I guess this...our friendship..you being in my life was either for a season or a reason...after 7 years, I'm still not totally sure which...either way, it's done....I may always wonder whether you would respond if I was to send you a message...I think I'd rather wonder 'what if' than to reach out and feel like a prick for trying again...
I hope life has been and continues to be good to you....
Milz
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4 comments:
She might not have been receptive to you when you first tried to reconciile, but it's been SEVEN years...you guys were teenagers back then.
I am the queen when it comes to living in the land of "what if"...it's why I day dream so much...but this is one of those things that's obviously heavy on your mind.
send her a note...she just might be thrilled to hear from you.
You can stop wondering if you just send her a message. Whether she responds or not at least you know where you two stand.
I had a friend I fell out with 4 yrs ago. She contacted me via Myspace 3 months ago. We talked about our issues and now we are resuming our friendship.
Falling in line with what opinionated diva and thoughts of a sourthern gal said, I think you should go ahead and reach out to her...
I mean...odds are she wants to/has thought about doing the very same but feels much like you do.
Just think of your initiating contact as you being the bigger person. :-)
Didn't want to make this all unanimous and all but when they are right they are right. I mean if the friendship was worth you putting this out there then it was obviously worth you risking feeling a little silly for being rejected. Risk it.
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