Frustrated

I've been living at my Grandparent’s house for 6 days now...and everyday I've been annoyed and frustrated to some extent.

One big thing I'm struggling with is my Granny's constant fussing!! She's babying me something chronic!! I know I know-she's just doing the typical Grandmother thing-but it's driving me nuts!! I just like to chill, do what I need to as and when I want-Granny's not having it...she's in my room telling me this should go here, and this there…I know she means well, but it's driving me absolutely crazy!!! I know I can't do anything about it, so I'm just tryna grin and bear it-I mean the upside to this, is as soon as I come home from work my dinner's there ready and waiting to be eaten!!

The 2nd thing-in fact it's the BIGGEST thing: my Uncle! Love him to bits, but damn if this man doesn't wanna drive me outta my head!! This week alone he's been at the house 3 maybe 4 times....and EVERY time he's leaving he's having me drive him home. On Sunday or maybe it was Monday, he was here-I had a BANGING headache-and he still had me take him home. On Wednesday, I went to my friend's house to pick up my new laptop, and stopped by his house to pick up my internet dongle. He then says that he'll be coming to the house to give my Granddad a bath...so I take him to the house. When all's done, he makes me take him home, cos he left his bus pass at his house (though taking a bus to his house makes NO sense!!). Today-same ting…this time it’s ‘it’s raining...can you take me home?’. Whilst I know I should just say no-but I can't seem to do it. Diva-I know what you said-but I just can't do it. I don’t know what it is, but for some reason the word 'no' just won't come out of my mouth...and though I feel like he's taking the piss outta me, I feel like there's nothing I can do about it! *sigh* I know-I'm a mug!

My alcoholic uncle that I've mentioned before (can't be bothered to link to it) has managed to earn himself a bed in the hospital. The man is drinking himself to death! Last week he decided not to drink anymore...and collapsed. So my Dad, aunty and Granny have all gone down to the hospital to see him. You can imagine how happy I was to see him! In fact, he's here now....I just hi, and kept it moving!!

*sigh* in the last hour-I swear my name's been called about 50 times!! (slight exaggeration, but it feels like it's non stop!!) I'm trying to quit smoking (4 days and counting) so I can't even have a fag to release some stress!

Oh-and that whole thing with J-there’s nothing more to report except we won’t be friends. From the other day that I sent her a message, she hasn’t replied…she’s changed her profile pic-so I know she’s seen the message, but she hasn’t responded…so much for being ‘mature’ she could have just said what it was, but she’s decided not to. I’m a bit disappointed-more annoyed than anything…but I’ve decided I’m not gonna try anymore. Just gonna let sleeping dogs lie. I was going through my old diary stuff earlier today-and I see an entry dated 14th Sept 05…on this day I tried to make things right with J then-and from what I wrote on this date, I tried 2 years before that…so that’s 2003,2005 & 2008 where I’ve tried. If I'd seen this diary entry earlier in the week, I really don't think I would've reached out to her....but now I’m done trying! Clearly us being friends again isn’t meant to be…and you know-I think I’m cool with that. I don’t have to wonder anymore cos I know what it is…..besides I’ve got some pretty damn good friends in my life right now, without trying to step back to reconnect with one that’s not clearly not interested!!