2nd Post As A 25 Year Old

Welcome back to all of my US counterparts (which is all of you) who were absent from Blogger celebrating and all that! Welcome back!!

My Birthday: FE called me at 8.45am telling me she’s coming to get me….she comes by my house and we (the girls) all go out for breakfast to this café called Negril-real JA breakie….you know it was TOO good!

Didn’t see Soldier at all, when he came back from the church ting, his driving buddy said he was ready to go back down to camp so he had to go. Please believe I was angry, and upset…more upset than anything though. We spoke, but where I was so upset, I wasn’t tryna hear anything…when I spoke to him later that evening, he was apologising and stuff, but I wasn’t tryna hear that either because to me he wasn’t apologising for blowing me out, he was simply saying sorry cos I was upset, and I was tryna show him that, but he wasn’t getting it. To him, because he told me what he was doing, that was enough-Bruv-it's really not!!!

Obviously what’s done is done, but I was really trying to get him to see why I was so upset…..he eventually understood yesterday. He was telling me that his bredrin (the dude he took to church) was his bredrin from whenever and how they would always be rolling together before we (me and him) got together etc….I told him I understood that, I also understood that it’s hard to say no to your bredrins mum-however, at what point do you consider me? What he couldn’t see was that they see him as a taxi service-they knew they wanted to go to North London-NO ONE in this family can drive YET they hire a van…..then phone Soldier and say we need to go here can you take us!!

I told him that I wasn’t asking him to choose between me and his bredrin-but what I wanted him to do was consider me and my feelings, and also be willing to put me 1st sometimes! I mean overriding our plans to be a taxi for them-on my birthday…??? Are we never able to make any plans to do things together because something may ‘pop up’ with them that you’ll have to bail out on me for???

Yesterday I threw all these questions at him, explained my side, and ‘light bulb moment’ he got it! He understood! And I got a heartfelt apology!! We’re cool…I’m not hostile (lol) towards him anymore!

So I’m now a quarter of a century….I don’t feel any different, it doesn’t feel exciting or anything….but I can say ‘I’m 25’…I just gotta keep reminding myself of that cos I can see me being ‘24’ for a few more months yet!!!

Randoms: I discovered that I can lay laminate flooring….my knees, elbows and fingers are sore beyond belief (get your minds out the gutter!) but my mum’s living room looks all professionally done! I’ve got skills I didn’t even know that I had! How sick is that??

Didn't get the j.o.b that I went for....shame really cos I coulda done with the extra money...but hey, it's nothing major-back to the drwaing board and all that!

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