Tuesday....

So this is day 2 of Soldier being away…and umm…let’s just say I’m handling it better than I thought I would, but not as great as I actually should. It’s not being helped by the fact that we weren’t on the best of terms (shock horror) when he was boarding his plane… I didn’t get to see him until Sunday…after he went back to his army base he went AWOL for a few days….and umm…I’m not feeling the reasons that he’s given….so…it’s kinda up in the air at the moment. I told him that he needed to take these 3 weeks to really think about what it is he wants, and I’m gonna do the same. I mean, you guys know how much I like this dude….however, I’m trying to look at the bigger picture here, and well, I have to protect my heart….I hate the fact that we’re here…I was hoping that this ish would be the real deal but right now there’s a big fat question mark hanging over us. He’s annoyed cos this holiday has kinda caused issues with us….more with him cos something’s going on with him that’s stressing him out and making him act weird, so I’m on his case cos of the way he’s acting…and it’s just a horrible sito and I’m not feeling it! So…..yeah, that’s that really….guess I can’t really say much more on that until he comes back and we see where things are….

Regardless of all that-how sad am I sleeping with his shirt!! Yeah-no comments here please! Lol!!

As I wasn’t handling Soldier’s departure real well, I smoked like a chimney and then I got a migraine, and I left work early. My manager was pissed as hell, but I didn’t care…..Slept for most of the day, had dinner and went straight back to sleep again! This morning my stomach feels like I’ve puked 6 billion times….and I haven’t! Today my head’s still a bit fuzzy, and my stomachs a tad quezy, and I have the cheek to be tired!!

For all those with enquiring minds (Ms Diva) I AM NOT PREGNANT !!!!!

I’ve decided I need a vacation! I don’t care where I go…just as long as there’s sun! I do however need money, and that doesn’t seem to be living here at the moment, so that’s that idea shot to the ground!!

As there isn’t much joy in this post I’ll conclude by saying that my phone line will be connected today, so I’ll have the net at my house……