Nothing

I've nothing to say...no ideas for a post....my brain is not functioning....work seems to be excessively busy for NO good reason, I'm tired alllll the time...to be honest I'm just soooooo fed up! I need a vacation (that I can't afford)...

*Sigh*

Guess I'll get back to work then.....

A Question....

Ok, so I've tried wording, and re-wording this question so it makes sense...but I can't get it right....here it goes anyway...I'm sure you smart and intellectual people will get what I'm trying to ask:

Do you think that someone with father issues has insecurities, and issues that they carry over into a relationship?

Do you think some one with unresolved father issues can ever truly be happy?

What's your take on unresolved father issues...and how do you reckon one can truly be in a happy relationship (or just happy) with so much hanging over one's head?

Y'all know I'm talking bout me here...I'm struggling ALOT right now...I've realised a few things, and I'm not liking it at all..but I don't know what to do...I'll get into that another day...but what do you reckon? And please be honest!

Looking Back

So today, I decided to change my blog skin.....and managed to lose much of my blogroll, and had to spend AAAAGGGGEEESSS trying to recover em (sorry if I've missed you off...you'll get back there soon) and added a few more along the way!!

But anyways, I was looking at previous posts, and came across
this post which was days after I broke up with Mr Man (remember him??lol!!) and Ms Diva said 'Won't be long before you're saying Mr Man whooooo?' Who would have thought it would have been a couple of weeks later that Soldier would enter into my life and we'd be dating and things?! I didn't even realise that I broke up with Mr Man in July and was dating Soldier in August...I could've sworn it was longer! -what am I like?!And Miss Diva-I really am like...Mr Man whooooo??

And oh-all of you loving people cussed me down to the ground about my smoking....but I can proudly announce that I have now gone 78 days without a cigarette!!! Yay for me! And for the record I have no cravings at all...infact I now dispise the smell of cigarette....they say ex-smokers are the worst, and I believe that....They are gross!

So here's to a smoke free, exercise filled (ahem) year ahead!

Hope you all have a great weekend!!!

I've Been Tagged

The rules of the game are:
A). Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog...
B). Tag 7 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs...
C). Let each person know that they've been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
'D). "NO TAG BACKS"

I was tagged by Miss Diva (she’s actually called Opinionated Diva…but I don’t call her that)

Two Names I go by:
1. Milz
2. Aunty Kima (by my cousin who couldn’t pronounce my name when she was younger-she just turned 7 and hasn’t even tried to figure what my name is…Aunty Kima it is then!)

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. Black jumper with silver stripes
2. My favourite black Nike trainers

Two Things You Would Want (or have) in a Relationship:
1. Friendship
2. Good conversation

Two of your favorite things to do:
1. Travel
2. Laugh

Two things you want very badly at the moment:
1. A hug from soldier
2. To be totally debt free (and actually have money left in the bank more than 2 days after payday!)

Two pets you had/have:1. My grandparents dog named Max-he was the best! But he had Diabetes and had to be put down….(though I don’t understand why he wasn’t just given meds..but anyways)
2. My brother’s dogs..Tyson & Hustle
(as you can see I’ve never had my own pet…but those count!)

Two people you think will fill this out:
1.I have
2. no idea

Things that you did last night:
1) Went to visit the fam (Mum, siblings & grandparents)
2) Spent a VERY nice evening with Soldier

Two things you ate today:
1. Cup of tea (I know it’s not food but it’s only 9am….so….)
2. 2 cookies (to dunk in the tea…mmm very nice!)

Two people you last talked to:
1. Soldier
2. The IT guy

Two things you're doing tomorrow:
1. Working
2. Chilling with Soldier

Two longest car rides:
1. London to Portsmouth
2. London to Birmingham

Two favorite holidays:
1. Any holiday that means I have a day off
2. See above

Favorite beverages:
1. Lemonade
2. Tea (with cookies to dunk!)

Person no longer alive who you'd like to talk to:
1. My God-brother Aaron
2. My Aunt Honey

People being tagged: Any & Everyone who hasn't already been tagged!

7 Years...Remembering

Today is my cousin’s 7th birthday. Today is also the 7th anniversary of the death of my Granny’s best friend’s grandson. He died exactly 12 hours after my lil cousin was born….

I remember it like it was yesterday. He had sickle cell, and had a crisis a couple days before, and was admitted into hospital. Apparently he hadn’t been taking his meds properly-if at all.

I was living with my aunty at the time, and I remember her coming into my room telling me her waters had broken. We called the ambulance….they came, and we headed off to the hospital. By the time we got to the hospital, my aunty was 7cm dialated…..In the next half hour my lil cousin popped out (literally)….the training nurse didn’t even get to put on her 2nd glove before my cousin flew out!!! She was born at 8.30am on 8th January 2001.

12 hours later in a hospital an hour away from where my cousin was born, lil D took his final breath…..8.30pm on 8th January 2001.

It was a day filled with happiness followed by sadness. Both my granny and his granny are convinced that lil D was waiting for my cousin to arrive, before he went…..they do say that with every birth, there is a death…and this was the case.

We all felt so guilty being happy that my cousin was here, when a family we knew very closely were feeling such heartache…it was almost unbelieveable.

8th January 2008 marks the 7th year….of a life brought into this world, and a life that left it……Lil D-you’ll never be forgotten….Continue to Rest In Peace……Happy Birthday Miss T-my favourite lil cousin!!

8th January…forever a day filled with emotions…

Dilemma...

So first things first, Gramps came out of hospital today. He's home resting...still got a terrible cough, but other than that, and being a bit weak, he's doing well.

A family friend is being faced with a dilemma...it's one I personally wouldn't want to ever have to make...and she's having a tough time...

Basically she's got serious eye problems. She's had probs ever since I can remember...she's a mother of 3...her youngest is about 2 months (if even that) and she's just found out that she's pregnant again....now her eyes have gotten progressively worse over the years, and she went to the eye doctor couple days ago. She's been told that she's basically going blind...she can barely see out of either eye....they're saying that in order to correct this thing with the eyes (I really can't remember what the problem is) then she's gonna go blind. As she's pregnant, they're saying she has to have an abortion and undergo the necessary surgery to sort out her eyesight....if however she decideds not to, she'll be blind by the time the baby's born....

Her boyfriend has basically told her to go for the op, but she's still undecided...it's kind of a hard choice...one that I'd hate to have to make...but if this was your situation what would you decide to do......??

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

Suspect....

Lemme run this sito by you.....to me it just screams suspect....inside job....whatever else you wanna call it...but what do you call it....

Here's the ting: My cousin was asked, by this family that attends the church that she (and my Granny & Aunty attend) to stay at their home for a week, whilst they go off on holiday to Jamaica. My cousin agrees....she stays there....everything's fine. Come New Year's Eve my cousin goes to church for 'Watch Night'. She leaves church after 2am, and heads to her home...she didn't want to head to a house that wasn't her on so late in the night.

So anyways, New Year's Day, she heads back to this family house to discover it's been broken into.....now hear this.....This house is apparently quite a big one....within this house there was 5 PCs and Laptops, a plasma TV, recording equipment (a few members of this family do the media...CDs and DVDs of the sermons for the church)...basically any burgular's dream. Wanna know what was stolen:
1 Laptop
A Nintendo Wii
A watch (that was wrapped up, and carefully unwrapped, taking only the watch)
Half of the money that was hidden in the wardrobe in one of the bedrooms)
2 of the vehicles that was parked in the front drive....

OK people....Does this not scream suspect to you? I mean, how many break-ins have you heard about where the robber decides to take only 1 of maybe 3 easily portable laptops...has time to carefully unwrap any box to remove a watch...only takes half of easily accessible money....?? Right.....me either!!

So anyways, my cousin calls the police, but being as they are, they take a year and a day to arrive, so she calls two of the Church brothers to come round and stay with her until they arrive. She calls the family to tell them of the break in-and you know what the first thing these people say?? 'you should've been there...' Hold on one minute my sista.....how about...are you ok.....are you hurt??' nope...you should have been there! Never mind the fact that she could have been raped, shot, killed anything had she of been in the house, coming face to face with whoever was up in the house...but these folks did not care.

They came back yesterday and cussed out my cousin, talking bout she should've been in the house, if she'd been there it wouldn't have happened (please note, my cousin is about probably an inch or so taller than me-making her 5'1 maybe 5'3 at the most, and is as skinny as a bean pole but um yeah-she meant to fight off anyone)...only one of the family members asked her if she was ok.

Now these folks-their mouths run like it doesn't belong to them...and has already started running their mouths about my cousin with the other people within the church....talking bout why did she have the church brothers in the house yada yada....I mean damn!!!!

When my aunty told me this, I was mad as all hell.....not only does this whole ting seem like a set up, but they're trying to lay the blame at my cousin's feet-asking her who did she tell that they were going away-erm...try your daughters who told the dudes down the street, that the reason why they couldn't go to their New Years Eve party was cos they would be in JA.....hmm...exactly!

So.....Suspect or not suspect......What say you??