Thursday, 15 November 2007
1 Step Closer
I got an email today from the recruiters for the job I'm going for. I passed the assessment I did on Monday, and have an interview next Thursday. I'm mad excited cos I got through (believe that assessment ting was NOT easy)...So I'm one step closer to a much more demanding, more exciting J-O-B and a phatter pay check!! I'mma just keep praying that I get through the next stage....Pray with me blog fam....
Wednesday, 14 November 2007
Wat A Ting!
Today has been...um...interesting....
I get into work late-after battling my way through traffic! When I get in, my friend tells me that my mum called my extension. So I get set up, and I call her back. She tells me to call my brother, and tell him to call his dad to get money. I'm like what's going on? She tells me that bailiffs came to the house this morning, and dropped off a letter informing her that they were coming back tomorrow morning to remove goods to the value of £550 (I'm rounding up here). I'm like where's that come from?
Basically my first car was my older sister's old banger. When I got my Smartie, the old car sat outside my house until I had sorted out getting it scrapped. In between this time, my brother decided to take the car and drive it around. For the purpose of cheaper insurance for me, the car was registered in my mum's name. So whilst my brother's driving about, he gets a ticket which he failed to pay. It went from £60 up to £110. Endless amounts of letters came in about it and each time my mum gave them to my brother, who swore up and down that he had paid the fine. Well clearly he hadn't cos now the amount owed is 5x the initial amount, and these people are threatening to take my mum's things!
She's in tears....and shit, and she's ranting on for about 15 minutes. I tell her I'd call my brother, and let her know what he says. I do, and he says that he'd call his dad. I felt bad for her, cos this is again, another situation that my brother's gotten my mum into, but at the same time it's down to her as well cos my brother knows that he can get around her! She let's him get away with murder!!
So after work I head to her house-see how everything's happening. I ask if my brother came to the house. She says no-that he spoke to the bailiffs and told them that right now he had £300 and wouldn't have the rest for a few days. The bailiff seemed to be ok with this-don't know what the actual arrangement was, but my mum was no longer upset, and seemed to accept what my brother told her-me like her though, I would've called them bailiffs myself to make sure they wasn't intending to turn up at my gaff in the morning with removal vans and shit! But hey-can't tell mum nothing!
My cousin who I haven't seen for ages came down. He had given my mum, my grandad's funeral DVD. There's history with my grandad-but that's a whole other post on it's own. He came down to identify various people in the dvd. The funeral took place in Jamaica, but none of us were there....as we watched the DVD, my cousin identified my mum's brothers (none of whom she speaks to anymore-again-whole other post), who's kids are who etc.....even though it was a sad thing we were watching. my cousin was giving the most joke!!!
My mum said that she wanted to take the kids to Jamaica next year, cos her mum hadn't met the younger kids....my cousin was like 'don't go in August, that's when my daughter's getting married' Congrats to her! She's like 20, she's been with her dude for a year now-bless him, he came to my cousin and asked for his daughter's hand in marriage! How cute?? I was like 'don't you think she's a bit young to get married?' He was like 'but at this age they're having kids etc' I was like true dat.....I'm happy for her still! So that's a wedding (I really hate weddings) for us all to go to!!
Right now I'm in my house chilling! I've been so tired recently-even though I'm going to bed relatively early...I'm a bit stressed out as well-nothing major, but enough for me to need a holiday!!!!!
Anyone wanna hook me up????
I get into work late-after battling my way through traffic! When I get in, my friend tells me that my mum called my extension. So I get set up, and I call her back. She tells me to call my brother, and tell him to call his dad to get money. I'm like what's going on? She tells me that bailiffs came to the house this morning, and dropped off a letter informing her that they were coming back tomorrow morning to remove goods to the value of £550 (I'm rounding up here). I'm like where's that come from?
Basically my first car was my older sister's old banger. When I got my Smartie, the old car sat outside my house until I had sorted out getting it scrapped. In between this time, my brother decided to take the car and drive it around. For the purpose of cheaper insurance for me, the car was registered in my mum's name. So whilst my brother's driving about, he gets a ticket which he failed to pay. It went from £60 up to £110. Endless amounts of letters came in about it and each time my mum gave them to my brother, who swore up and down that he had paid the fine. Well clearly he hadn't cos now the amount owed is 5x the initial amount, and these people are threatening to take my mum's things!
She's in tears....and shit, and she's ranting on for about 15 minutes. I tell her I'd call my brother, and let her know what he says. I do, and he says that he'd call his dad. I felt bad for her, cos this is again, another situation that my brother's gotten my mum into, but at the same time it's down to her as well cos my brother knows that he can get around her! She let's him get away with murder!!
So after work I head to her house-see how everything's happening. I ask if my brother came to the house. She says no-that he spoke to the bailiffs and told them that right now he had £300 and wouldn't have the rest for a few days. The bailiff seemed to be ok with this-don't know what the actual arrangement was, but my mum was no longer upset, and seemed to accept what my brother told her-me like her though, I would've called them bailiffs myself to make sure they wasn't intending to turn up at my gaff in the morning with removal vans and shit! But hey-can't tell mum nothing!
My cousin who I haven't seen for ages came down. He had given my mum, my grandad's funeral DVD. There's history with my grandad-but that's a whole other post on it's own. He came down to identify various people in the dvd. The funeral took place in Jamaica, but none of us were there....as we watched the DVD, my cousin identified my mum's brothers (none of whom she speaks to anymore-again-whole other post), who's kids are who etc.....even though it was a sad thing we were watching. my cousin was giving the most joke!!!
My mum said that she wanted to take the kids to Jamaica next year, cos her mum hadn't met the younger kids....my cousin was like 'don't go in August, that's when my daughter's getting married' Congrats to her! She's like 20, she's been with her dude for a year now-bless him, he came to my cousin and asked for his daughter's hand in marriage! How cute?? I was like 'don't you think she's a bit young to get married?' He was like 'but at this age they're having kids etc' I was like true dat.....I'm happy for her still! So that's a wedding (I really hate weddings) for us all to go to!!
Right now I'm in my house chilling! I've been so tired recently-even though I'm going to bed relatively early...I'm a bit stressed out as well-nothing major, but enough for me to need a holiday!!!!!
Anyone wanna hook me up????
Tuesday, 13 November 2007
Loss
Just wanna say RIP Dr Donda West, the mother of Kanye West. I pray to God to keep her soul, and to give Kanye and loved ones the strength to go on....My heart goes out to them.
Sunday, 11 November 2007
I'm still here
This week, I've been soooo stressed....and you know what-I can't actually pin point why!! I haven't however resorted to cigarettes.....I have been without a fag for over 2 weeks! Soldier is majorly proud cos he's thinks it's cos of him (which it kinda is cos I got tired of the moaning!) Just feels like I'm carrying the world on my shoulders-and I'm not doing a very good job of it...
Soldier came by and saw me on Friday. He told me the other day that he wouldn't be able to come up and see me because of Remembrance Sunday (which is today) he would have to be a part of the parade for all the lost soldiers in World Wars 1 & 2 and the other wars since then. But his friend was leaving camp on Friday and so he went out of his way to get a lift up to London to see me....bless him! So we spent Friday together which was real nice. He told me that he sneaked off campus....then he's like 'you see how important you are to me?' aww bless him...I did go on about how much I missed him, but I didn't want him to do anything to get himself in trouble...if he got caught he would have been fined and for someone as careful about money as he...that's a big deal.Why do I feel special that he'd risk all that for me???
Was up at the crack of dawn on Saturday (4am to be precise) cos I was heading to France for the day, so I didn't spend Saturday with him....instead I was with the fam....it was a pretty cool day out-nothing overly fancy! Got home at around 8....just missed Soldier which I was less than impressed about, but hey-that's how the cookie crumbles.
Soldier came by and saw me on Friday. He told me the other day that he wouldn't be able to come up and see me because of Remembrance Sunday (which is today) he would have to be a part of the parade for all the lost soldiers in World Wars 1 & 2 and the other wars since then. But his friend was leaving camp on Friday and so he went out of his way to get a lift up to London to see me....bless him! So we spent Friday together which was real nice. He told me that he sneaked off campus....then he's like 'you see how important you are to me?' aww bless him...I did go on about how much I missed him, but I didn't want him to do anything to get himself in trouble...if he got caught he would have been fined and for someone as careful about money as he...that's a big deal.Why do I feel special that he'd risk all that for me???
Was up at the crack of dawn on Saturday (4am to be precise) cos I was heading to France for the day, so I didn't spend Saturday with him....instead I was with the fam....it was a pretty cool day out-nothing overly fancy! Got home at around 8....just missed Soldier which I was less than impressed about, but hey-that's how the cookie crumbles.
Monday, 5 November 2007
BORED!!!!
I'm soooooooo bored! Right now, I'm at my house watching soaps bored out of my friggin head! There's nothing to do, no money to go anywhere...it's all crap!! Soldier's at his Army base.....not seeing him til Friday evening....which feels like centuries away....
Sitting here thinking about what I'm gonna do for my birthday...*sigh* getting older sucks! I ain't got no money to do it big...I don't think I even want to (do it big)
I've got a headache-I think I'll stop moaning long enough to drag my ass to bed! Hope you guys are having a better Monday than I!
Sitting here thinking about what I'm gonna do for my birthday...*sigh* getting older sucks! I ain't got no money to do it big...I don't think I even want to (do it big)
I've got a headache-I think I'll stop moaning long enough to drag my ass to bed! Hope you guys are having a better Monday than I!
Friday, 2 November 2007
Conversation With Soldier
Whilst watching ‘Disappearing Acts’ the other day with Soldier, I thought I’d enquire how he felt about me, and us…..
Me: What do you want for us?
Him: I want us to be happy…be together…
Me: Are you happy?
Him: Yep…very happy
Me: Do you see us together in 30 odd years?
Him: Yep-We’ll get married, and I’ll take care of you, buy us a house, and have kids….
Me: Ok….so um, how do you feel about me?
Him: I’m in love with you
Me: *Stunned silence*
*After about a min of stunned silence *
Me: What you say?
Him: I’m in love with you. I’m really happy with you…I want us to be happy together
Me: *silence*……
Me: So you’re saying you’re in love with me??
Him: Yeah-I am
*He leans over and hugs me*
Me: Um….right…..ok……
Yeah…um….wasn’t ready for those lyrics…I didn’t say anything after that, we just kinda fell back into the movie….I like him a whole lot…but I don’t think I’m at the love stage….I’m in deep-like with him right now. Yeah, um, why did I ask? I dunno…..but honestly, that response I was NOT expecting....dunno what I was expecting…but it wasn’t that.
Tonight I’m introducing him to Nando’s…..might even go and see some fireworks display at the park later….Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
Me: What do you want for us?
Him: I want us to be happy…be together…
Me: Are you happy?
Him: Yep…very happy
Me: Do you see us together in 30 odd years?
Him: Yep-We’ll get married, and I’ll take care of you, buy us a house, and have kids….
Me: Ok….so um, how do you feel about me?
Him: I’m in love with you
Me: *Stunned silence*
*After about a min of stunned silence *
Me: What you say?
Him: I’m in love with you. I’m really happy with you…I want us to be happy together
Me: *silence*……
Me: So you’re saying you’re in love with me??
Him: Yeah-I am
*He leans over and hugs me*
Me: Um….right…..ok……
Yeah…um….wasn’t ready for those lyrics…I didn’t say anything after that, we just kinda fell back into the movie….I like him a whole lot…but I don’t think I’m at the love stage….I’m in deep-like with him right now. Yeah, um, why did I ask? I dunno…..but honestly, that response I was NOT expecting....dunno what I was expecting…but it wasn’t that.
Tonight I’m introducing him to Nando’s…..might even go and see some fireworks display at the park later….Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
Thursday, 1 November 2007
Something To Say
So it seems I’ll be getting a new cooker tomorrow. And if I don’t, I’ll be moving out. Crap thing is I was ready to pack my ish and leave, cos the Landlord had breached so many things in the contract cos of the cooker, but now that he’s agreed to replace it, I can terminate my contract without leaving myself out of pocket….So for the moment I have to stay put, however, if tomorrow the new cooker does not arrive…then there’ll be problems!!!
This week has been pretty cool…been spending a lot of time with Soldier…he’s being so sweet-that 3 week trip has done the both of us the world of good. He brought his little girl to my house the other day-gorgeous as she is….and just my luck, she falls over and bangs her head-whilst at my house…you know you just think-of ALL the places and at all the possible times, it has to be at my house! But she was fine, had a red bruise on her head that was gone by the time she was taken home…I now won’t see him until Friday, cos he’s at his Army base giving back his accommodation and having his earlier release interview with his superior…he went for an interview on Tuesday and got the job (yay for him) so he needs to speak to these folks for them to release him.
I’ve got an assessment for a new job in the next 2 weeks. After that whole thing that happened with my manager when my Grandad was sick, I realised how much I hated being here….and after nearly losing him twice, I realised that life really is too short to sit around talking about what I wanna do and not getting off my ass and getting it done. So I’m actively job hunting…finger’s crossed I get something real soon, cos I’ve seriously had enough of being here!
My dad called me the other day (why?!?!?!) My granny told him that I had moved out, and all this, so he calls me asking me about the flat, chatting shit bout how he's gonna come and see my place (yeah right-whatever) and that he's gonna help me every month (again-yeah right, whatever)...chatting all this shit in my ears. Now before you start thinking that he's making the effort, and I'm just being hard and not giving him a chance, please know that he does this all the time. Whenever my Granny has some words with him, he calls me, chats shit and promises things that he can't deliver. I've accepted the way things are with us-he's not there for me in any way and that's just the way it is. It pisses me off that he keeps trying to waste my time...like on a real, if I didn't know any better I'd be so happy cos he's telling me all the things that he'll do, and when he doesn't come through I'm left disappointed! At the end of the day, I'm damn near 25 and everything I've got, acheived and done in my life I did without him......SO he needs to stop kidding himself, and wasting my time chatting shit, cos at this stage in my life I.DONT.NEED.HIM!
I don’t actually have much else to report…this is why I haven’t blogged for a while, cos there’s nothing to really report….So for now...
This week has been pretty cool…been spending a lot of time with Soldier…he’s being so sweet-that 3 week trip has done the both of us the world of good. He brought his little girl to my house the other day-gorgeous as she is….and just my luck, she falls over and bangs her head-whilst at my house…you know you just think-of ALL the places and at all the possible times, it has to be at my house! But she was fine, had a red bruise on her head that was gone by the time she was taken home…I now won’t see him until Friday, cos he’s at his Army base giving back his accommodation and having his earlier release interview with his superior…he went for an interview on Tuesday and got the job (yay for him) so he needs to speak to these folks for them to release him.
I’ve got an assessment for a new job in the next 2 weeks. After that whole thing that happened with my manager when my Grandad was sick, I realised how much I hated being here….and after nearly losing him twice, I realised that life really is too short to sit around talking about what I wanna do and not getting off my ass and getting it done. So I’m actively job hunting…finger’s crossed I get something real soon, cos I’ve seriously had enough of being here!
My dad called me the other day (why?!?!?!) My granny told him that I had moved out, and all this, so he calls me asking me about the flat, chatting shit bout how he's gonna come and see my place (yeah right-whatever) and that he's gonna help me every month (again-yeah right, whatever)...chatting all this shit in my ears. Now before you start thinking that he's making the effort, and I'm just being hard and not giving him a chance, please know that he does this all the time. Whenever my Granny has some words with him, he calls me, chats shit and promises things that he can't deliver. I've accepted the way things are with us-he's not there for me in any way and that's just the way it is. It pisses me off that he keeps trying to waste my time...like on a real, if I didn't know any better I'd be so happy cos he's telling me all the things that he'll do, and when he doesn't come through I'm left disappointed! At the end of the day, I'm damn near 25 and everything I've got, acheived and done in my life I did without him......SO he needs to stop kidding himself, and wasting my time chatting shit, cos at this stage in my life I.DONT.NEED.HIM!
I don’t actually have much else to report…this is why I haven’t blogged for a while, cos there’s nothing to really report….So for now...
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