Sunday....

Today is Mother's Day over here....so to all the Mothers: Happy Mothers Day!!!!

I purposely woke up early today...tidied my house and headed out to buy Mother's Day cards (yeah, I know I left it REEEALLLY late). I wanted to stop by the cemetry to put flowers on my LF's Mum's grave, but I didn't get to in the end...I'mma try get there one day this week! It's days like this that appreciate what you have....when you think of those that do not have....I'm sure my friend would give anything to have her Mum here now...I stopped at my Mum house-it was about 2pm....Mum was in bed...kipping....barely managed to grunt a hello...I left the card on the table...conversated with them kids, and then headed out to my Granny's. It's now after 7pm, and she hasn't called or text to say thanks for the card or nothing....*sigh* I dunno...! I'm trying to appreciate her...but she's seriously working my nerve!!

Chilling at my Granny's and my dad comes round (gggggrrrrrr!!!) I haven't seen or spoken to him since he left the A & E department of the hospital on New Years Eve. Everytime this man is in my vicinity, he manages to mess with my spirit....I always feel sooo angry. I try not to, but thus far, to no avail. He's here for about an hour....and only acknowledges me when I open the door, and when he's leaving. I'm upstairs in the spare room on my laptop, he comes in, puts his hand on my head, and asks about my laptop (that he helped pay for yet never seen...cos he's NEVER been to any of the places that I've lived at!)...then he's like, ok, see you later! Ok-whatever...I didn't even look at him.....but my blood is boiling. I'm SO mad that he has this effect on me. I'm meant to be seeing Soldier this evening...heaven help him! lol! I'm in a rotten mood now!

Looking back at the way things have been...and I've been a crap girlfriend...I almost...almost feel bad for Solider....ah..that feelings gone now! lol!!

I've got many issues....and I know it's affecting my daily life, my relationship everything...I'm just trying to deal with it all....

Ok, so this post as totally changed direction...it wasn't supposed to be all deep with emotion and crap....

Hope you're all having a good chilled out Sunday! I'm off for a nap...something about eating rice n peas, chicken, veg, roasted spuds with gravy that makes a sista TIRED!!