Guess Who's Back?? (Forreal this time!!!)

So last night I went raving...me and my friend went to a club in Brixton....it was TOOOOOOO heavy! My goodness! I danced to every tune! Like right now I can't believe it was so good. The DJ killed it! Was playing album tunes.....you know the ones that you only know if you have the artist's album???? Those were the ones!!

Soldier and his boy (who loves off my friend) were meant to come, but didn't in the end, cos they don't like Brixton-so they got left! I was on FYAH last night-to be honest I don't even know why, but I had pure man's attention! I'm not even tryna hype it to be something it's not...but honestly there were just men all over tryna dance with me! I danced with a few (lol-check me though!!) I was told I had bare energy, that I had sexy moves (erm...right!)....The whole time though I did wish Soldier was there....but damn it if I was letting that stop my night!!!! And today I'm losing my voice....but it was really worth it!!

Soldier's been ON MY CASE something rotten about my smoking! It's getting on my nerves! Now before you all start agreeing with him, please note that that day I met him was the last day that I had a cigarette. Everything was going well, until his baby mama decided to call me and ask me what I'm doing with her husband! So you know I went straight to the shop to buy some smokes!! That was about 2 weeks ago...and was one of the worst weekends of my life...oh yeah-he's has a daughter....whom I didn't know about until 2 weeks ago.....So anyways we worked it all out, and we're cool now....however I haven't been dealing with the baby mama thing very well....on Weds he showed up at my house with his kid....I was less than impressed-purely cos he didn't tell me she was coming, and I didn't have the chance to prepare myself or anything. He got upset cos I wasn't all over her...and I told him that it was cos I was unprepared! She's a gorgeous little girl, and she looks just like him....anyways, whilst he's at my house, the baby's mum calls....I hear her tell him that she loves him-I'm pissed as sin! We have a talk....and though I know that he can't control what she says to him, he needs to shut it down when she does!!! He's acting like I'm saying he shouldn't be there for his daughter-but that's NOT what I'm saying! I would never tell him to do that-I've experienced 1st hand what it's like to deal with a shit ass father-and I wouldn't wish that on my worse enemy-so why would I tell him to be that kinda person? He's asking me what I want him to do-but to be honest I have no clue. I've told him that I want him in my life, and I know that means his daughter will be a part of that too-and I can deal with that. The baby mama doesn't know about us...if she knows then she'll go on dumb with him seeing his baby girl-I don't want that-but at the same time her not knowing may be giving her the impression that she and he can get back together. I just don't want the drama man!!

He says he wants a future with me-and I want the same with him-I just wanna know-what happened to the honeymoon period! It lasted all of 2 weeks before drama started-but we're cool...we're getting on...I do feel pangs of jealousy (shit did I just say that?) when she calls him to talk of the baby and stuff-but I guess that's my hang up right..?

But anyways-with all that aside we're getting on well...and working towards a relationship....I'm happy.... :) I just spoke to him and he told me that my black earrings that I have on look nice...I mean who knew he noticed???? Aww bless him!!

So that's what's really happened over the past few weeks......but don't worry...I'm doing good, and things are good!!!! I've MISSED you ALL!!!!!!