A New Beginning

So me and Soldier are no more. We officially broke up on Sunday. After 10 months of trying, I finally threw in the towel-finally got tired of his shit and drama...so I'm a singleton again, and I'm feeling like a weight has been lifted!

I'm on a new vibe now. I'm looking forward. I got diagnosed with depression last week, so I'm now looking to work on that. Get my mind right....doing everything I can to avoid going on meds...

It's a year to the day that my friend's Mum died. Today I'm thinking a lot. About life in general, and what it may hold. Remembering Mrs A, and reminding myself that life is for living....so I'm gonna hold on to that-and just live my life to the FULLEST! Avoiding hype & drama the best I can, focus on ME!

I'm moving out of my flat in the next week or so, to live with my Grandparents. I'd been thinking about it for a while, and my Grandad asked me to move in the other say, so I'm gonna do that, and get serious about clearing my debts, saving some money....I'm looking to book NYC in the next month or so...I'm SO looking forward to it!

So here's to a new beginning....a new me....a happy me!

Dedication

I've just come home-I am totally knackered!!!! My nephew got dedicated today...and I've been on the move-non stop.

I didn't too much like the way that the church service went-to be honest it was a bit boring...nothing but sermon after sermon after sermon...no singing or nothing. There was 7 babies in total being dedivated. They were all brought up to the front (altar is it?) And a member of the church had each child. The pastor preached and prayed...and that was it. In my opinion it wasn't very personal-but that's just my opinion. After the dedications, there were more sermons!! My brother, who shock horror, turned up in shoes! (With his girlfriend who happens to be Muslim but came out to show support) was hungry, and wanted to go get food. Cos he has no license, I was nominated to drive, so we went on for KFC. By the time we got back, the service was over.

Went home, got changed, and went to the hall to set up. It was pure madness. It was meant to start at 5.30, but the table didn't get opened (blessed etc) until 7.30....cos my sister's boyfriend had to go here there and everywhere to pick up somebody. My sis was less than impressed. When the table was finally open, and food was available, that's when the madness started. I was so rushed off my feet, I had to change my heels to my trainers-it just HAD to be done!!!

Then came all the tidying up, and trying to get black folks to leave! Lol! I just don't get it-I don't think I ever will....black folks always turn up late, and always wanna be the last one to leave! Lol!!!

I'm at home now, watching 'Crash'. I've seen this movie countless times, but it's so good-and definitely one of my faves...I'll probably fall asleep watching it-cos I'm so tired! Thankfully there's no work tomorrow-and I intend to sleep ALL day!!!!

4th May 2007

This is the day that I signed up to Blogger.com and created my 1st post. Without going into the archives, I actually remember a lot of that day...I remember having it on my mind all day-so much so that I did 2 posts that day.



I first decided to create a blog, cos I missed writing-just random crap about my day, my thoughts, feelings etc. I had a diary back the day-when I was in high school, and I kept it down the side of my bed. One day my Mum decides to 'tidy' my room, finds my diary, reads it and then passed it on to every member of my family....it was during this time-in the midst of an arguement, that she told me that my Dad never wanted me, and wanted to abort me (whole set of drama, for a whole other day)....and from then until now, I vowed to never have another diary. When I moved out on my own though I did have another diary, but that crap was short lived.....

Anyways, since 4th May 2007, a lot has happened, some good, some bad. But nevertheless Tom-Gurl is still here. I never thought blogging would be like this-to be honest, I didn't really have many expectations.....

But through this Blogging ting I've come in to contact with some seriously amazing people that have touched my life.....Ms Diva, Ms B, T #2, Kare Bear, Deep......there are many other blogs that I check out on a regular for my dose of laughter, thought provocation etc...

So cos my life has been hella crazy, I totally missed my blogiversary, so I'm taking this time to say happy 1 year and 19 days to tomgurl.blogspot.com...

Thank you to ALL my readers for coming by, reading and commenting..it's been good times!!

Here's to some more!! (And maybe even some regular postings!lol, *no more side eyes Ms Diva*)

Questions

Have you ever made a decision-a big decision, and wonder if the choice you made was the right one?

How do you know whether you made the right choice?

If you really did make the wrong choice, at which point do you realise it was wrong?

What do you do now?

Addicted

It's official, I suck as a Blogger! There no real reasons why I haven't blogged since when and when time, so I'm not gonna make up excuses!
 
I realised last night that I'm well and truly addicted to my Crackberry....it's deep: Last night I put my phone on silent, cos I was avoiding calls from Soldier (we had an arguement the day before, and I'm not talking to him! lol) I go to bed just after 11pm.  2am, I'm still tossing and turning....why you ask? Cos my phone's on silent, and I know it's on silent, and the thought of not hearing my phone ring (even though that's what I wanted to do) was enough to prevent me having a peaceful slumber....so you know what I did....turned that mofo off silent...and slept soundly until 6.45 this morning!!! 
 
I can't ever be without my phone. If I get an email or text in the middle of my sleep, I WILL wake up AND respond to it....it just HAS to be done....I never allow my battery to die (can you imagine NO phone calls, texts OR emails?) the funniest thing is, I don't actually like talking on the phone much....however I must be contactable at all times!
 
Hi-my name is Tom_Gurl, and I'm addicted to my crackberry!

Good, Bad & Interesting

This week has been a good'un so far...interesting...but good.

***Good points***
•Sun has been shining-no rain
•Monday was Bank Holiday so no work!!
•My Mum & siblings are not on a hype ting & I managed to spend a couple GOOD hours at the house yesterday
•Work's been kinda live (could it really be so?)
•I've felt happy and content within myself
•My older sister is pregnant and she's keeping it...so guess who's gonna be an aunty again??? (Need a hint?)

***Bad Points***
•I'm broke as hell, and pay day is tooo far away
•I'm tired-keep waking up at stupid o'clock for no good reason
•I'm stuck in the office whilst the sun is out!
•My ryde or die friend is leaving my workplace on Friday- what the heck am I gonna do on lunch breaks now?
•Cos the sun is out, so are the monstrosities, gross outfits, and things no young-or old for that matter, pair of eyes should EVER have to see!!

***Interesting points***
•Me and my Smartie seem to be getting A LOT of stares this week...the way people are staring you wouldn't think there's a Smart sighting every 10 seconds!
•My Smart has been the topic of conversation by random old white men
•My old driving instructor is on my case AGAIN....he's tryna take me out to dinner-and has wanted to do so ever since he starting teaching me to drive-some 5 years or so ago...he's stepped it up a notch talking bout weekend away-erm no bruv!! You are NOT attractive (picture a slimy Bernie Mac)I'm not in the slightest bit interested and I have a man...!! Back off will ya!
•Random dudes keep tryna talk to me...and they're all either Nigerian or Yardies!! 'Yuh nice girl' ...gee thanks-but please, let's keep it moving!!! (Though they are reminding me that I'm a Goodas Gyal and me have it like dat!! Lmao)

I tell ya, the Sun comes out for a minute and everybody loses their senses!
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What Say You?

A man's situation: You have a child. The child is a year old, recently you've been having thoughts that the child may not be yours. You and the child's mother or not together, and haven't been since she became pregnant. You're paying child support....and have been an active part of this child's life. You're now going to take the necessary steps to find out if the child is indeed yours.......If the results come back that you are NOT the father do you.........

a) Still be a part of the child's life. You've helped to raise, love and support the child for the past year....

OR

b)Severe all ties....never seeing the child again......

What say you?
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