I've just come off the phone with Soldier, and I'm so annoyed. So it's my birthday weekend this weekend, and initially there were all these plans: I was gonna go down to Wiltshire for the weekend, and then we'd go on to Swindon on Sunday for a day out. Then that changed, and he decided that he was gonna come up to London. We'd go cinema to see 'American Gangster' on Friday night, and then go out for the day on Sunday.
I asked him if he was definitely coming down on Friday-he's on strike from driving-not that I'm surprised cos Petrol now costs the same as a damn mortgage, and driving on the motorway can't be fun...so he now relies on his friend who drives up to London with him. He tells me yeah, and that I should check the cinema times. Showing is at 8.30pm-I know for a fact that he won't be in London by then.
Then I ask him what he's doing on Saturday. He tells me that he's getting his daughter (usual Saturday occurance) I was like ok cool, then he's like and then on Sunday I'm going to Tottenham (North London). I ask why he's going there, he tells me he's going to some church convention ting with his bredrin, and his bredrin's mum and bro etc. I'm mad now cos right there that's our plans out the window. I'm annoyed cos he'll be playing chaffeur to his bredrin on my birthday! I'm even MORE annoyed because I'd planned my b'day dinner (with the fam and friends) for NEXT weekend cos I knew that me and him had plans for MY BIRTHDAY!!!
So after he told me that, I just wasn't in the mood for talking. He's constantly asking me what's wrong, and I'm constantly telling him nothing's wrong. I mean, why do I need to spell it out for you-surely you can see why I'd be annoyed-but nope-it's flown clean over his head! Shit-to make things worse-the bwoy didn't even invite me to the convention ting! I mean really what gives? I'd rearrange my whole weekend-my usual Sunday routine to accomodate the plans that are now no more.
I'm so pissed!!! So now, technically my birthday's ruined, but frig that-I've said from the jump I'm not letting anyone spoil my day. I won't be doing anything, but I damn sure won't be in my house feeling depressed and shit! I'm going to Granny's for some good chicken, rice and peas, roast potatoes and some veg! Yuh Get Me!!!!
Now I'm bout to prepare myself for a drama-filled conversation with the chick I've previously mentioned here. Cha-it's gonna be some quick ting anyways cos gyal like me needs to be on top form for this interview tomorrow!
*Sigh*...I'm Out...TG
Wednesday, 21 November 2007
Thursday, 15 November 2007
1 Step Closer
I got an email today from the recruiters for the job I'm going for. I passed the assessment I did on Monday, and have an interview next Thursday. I'm mad excited cos I got through (believe that assessment ting was NOT easy)...So I'm one step closer to a much more demanding, more exciting J-O-B and a phatter pay check!! I'mma just keep praying that I get through the next stage....Pray with me blog fam....
Wednesday, 14 November 2007
Wat A Ting!
Today has been...um...interesting....
I get into work late-after battling my way through traffic! When I get in, my friend tells me that my mum called my extension. So I get set up, and I call her back. She tells me to call my brother, and tell him to call his dad to get money. I'm like what's going on? She tells me that bailiffs came to the house this morning, and dropped off a letter informing her that they were coming back tomorrow morning to remove goods to the value of £550 (I'm rounding up here). I'm like where's that come from?
Basically my first car was my older sister's old banger. When I got my Smartie, the old car sat outside my house until I had sorted out getting it scrapped. In between this time, my brother decided to take the car and drive it around. For the purpose of cheaper insurance for me, the car was registered in my mum's name. So whilst my brother's driving about, he gets a ticket which he failed to pay. It went from £60 up to £110. Endless amounts of letters came in about it and each time my mum gave them to my brother, who swore up and down that he had paid the fine. Well clearly he hadn't cos now the amount owed is 5x the initial amount, and these people are threatening to take my mum's things!
She's in tears....and shit, and she's ranting on for about 15 minutes. I tell her I'd call my brother, and let her know what he says. I do, and he says that he'd call his dad. I felt bad for her, cos this is again, another situation that my brother's gotten my mum into, but at the same time it's down to her as well cos my brother knows that he can get around her! She let's him get away with murder!!
So after work I head to her house-see how everything's happening. I ask if my brother came to the house. She says no-that he spoke to the bailiffs and told them that right now he had £300 and wouldn't have the rest for a few days. The bailiff seemed to be ok with this-don't know what the actual arrangement was, but my mum was no longer upset, and seemed to accept what my brother told her-me like her though, I would've called them bailiffs myself to make sure they wasn't intending to turn up at my gaff in the morning with removal vans and shit! But hey-can't tell mum nothing!
My cousin who I haven't seen for ages came down. He had given my mum, my grandad's funeral DVD. There's history with my grandad-but that's a whole other post on it's own. He came down to identify various people in the dvd. The funeral took place in Jamaica, but none of us were there....as we watched the DVD, my cousin identified my mum's brothers (none of whom she speaks to anymore-again-whole other post), who's kids are who etc.....even though it was a sad thing we were watching. my cousin was giving the most joke!!!
My mum said that she wanted to take the kids to Jamaica next year, cos her mum hadn't met the younger kids....my cousin was like 'don't go in August, that's when my daughter's getting married' Congrats to her! She's like 20, she's been with her dude for a year now-bless him, he came to my cousin and asked for his daughter's hand in marriage! How cute?? I was like 'don't you think she's a bit young to get married?' He was like 'but at this age they're having kids etc' I was like true dat.....I'm happy for her still! So that's a wedding (I really hate weddings) for us all to go to!!
Right now I'm in my house chilling! I've been so tired recently-even though I'm going to bed relatively early...I'm a bit stressed out as well-nothing major, but enough for me to need a holiday!!!!!
Anyone wanna hook me up????
I get into work late-after battling my way through traffic! When I get in, my friend tells me that my mum called my extension. So I get set up, and I call her back. She tells me to call my brother, and tell him to call his dad to get money. I'm like what's going on? She tells me that bailiffs came to the house this morning, and dropped off a letter informing her that they were coming back tomorrow morning to remove goods to the value of £550 (I'm rounding up here). I'm like where's that come from?
Basically my first car was my older sister's old banger. When I got my Smartie, the old car sat outside my house until I had sorted out getting it scrapped. In between this time, my brother decided to take the car and drive it around. For the purpose of cheaper insurance for me, the car was registered in my mum's name. So whilst my brother's driving about, he gets a ticket which he failed to pay. It went from £60 up to £110. Endless amounts of letters came in about it and each time my mum gave them to my brother, who swore up and down that he had paid the fine. Well clearly he hadn't cos now the amount owed is 5x the initial amount, and these people are threatening to take my mum's things!
She's in tears....and shit, and she's ranting on for about 15 minutes. I tell her I'd call my brother, and let her know what he says. I do, and he says that he'd call his dad. I felt bad for her, cos this is again, another situation that my brother's gotten my mum into, but at the same time it's down to her as well cos my brother knows that he can get around her! She let's him get away with murder!!
So after work I head to her house-see how everything's happening. I ask if my brother came to the house. She says no-that he spoke to the bailiffs and told them that right now he had £300 and wouldn't have the rest for a few days. The bailiff seemed to be ok with this-don't know what the actual arrangement was, but my mum was no longer upset, and seemed to accept what my brother told her-me like her though, I would've called them bailiffs myself to make sure they wasn't intending to turn up at my gaff in the morning with removal vans and shit! But hey-can't tell mum nothing!
My cousin who I haven't seen for ages came down. He had given my mum, my grandad's funeral DVD. There's history with my grandad-but that's a whole other post on it's own. He came down to identify various people in the dvd. The funeral took place in Jamaica, but none of us were there....as we watched the DVD, my cousin identified my mum's brothers (none of whom she speaks to anymore-again-whole other post), who's kids are who etc.....even though it was a sad thing we were watching. my cousin was giving the most joke!!!
My mum said that she wanted to take the kids to Jamaica next year, cos her mum hadn't met the younger kids....my cousin was like 'don't go in August, that's when my daughter's getting married' Congrats to her! She's like 20, she's been with her dude for a year now-bless him, he came to my cousin and asked for his daughter's hand in marriage! How cute?? I was like 'don't you think she's a bit young to get married?' He was like 'but at this age they're having kids etc' I was like true dat.....I'm happy for her still! So that's a wedding (I really hate weddings) for us all to go to!!
Right now I'm in my house chilling! I've been so tired recently-even though I'm going to bed relatively early...I'm a bit stressed out as well-nothing major, but enough for me to need a holiday!!!!!
Anyone wanna hook me up????
Tuesday, 13 November 2007
Loss
Just wanna say RIP Dr Donda West, the mother of Kanye West. I pray to God to keep her soul, and to give Kanye and loved ones the strength to go on....My heart goes out to them.
Sunday, 11 November 2007
I'm still here
This week, I've been soooo stressed....and you know what-I can't actually pin point why!! I haven't however resorted to cigarettes.....I have been without a fag for over 2 weeks! Soldier is majorly proud cos he's thinks it's cos of him (which it kinda is cos I got tired of the moaning!) Just feels like I'm carrying the world on my shoulders-and I'm not doing a very good job of it...
Soldier came by and saw me on Friday. He told me the other day that he wouldn't be able to come up and see me because of Remembrance Sunday (which is today) he would have to be a part of the parade for all the lost soldiers in World Wars 1 & 2 and the other wars since then. But his friend was leaving camp on Friday and so he went out of his way to get a lift up to London to see me....bless him! So we spent Friday together which was real nice. He told me that he sneaked off campus....then he's like 'you see how important you are to me?' aww bless him...I did go on about how much I missed him, but I didn't want him to do anything to get himself in trouble...if he got caught he would have been fined and for someone as careful about money as he...that's a big deal.Why do I feel special that he'd risk all that for me???
Was up at the crack of dawn on Saturday (4am to be precise) cos I was heading to France for the day, so I didn't spend Saturday with him....instead I was with the fam....it was a pretty cool day out-nothing overly fancy! Got home at around 8....just missed Soldier which I was less than impressed about, but hey-that's how the cookie crumbles.
Soldier came by and saw me on Friday. He told me the other day that he wouldn't be able to come up and see me because of Remembrance Sunday (which is today) he would have to be a part of the parade for all the lost soldiers in World Wars 1 & 2 and the other wars since then. But his friend was leaving camp on Friday and so he went out of his way to get a lift up to London to see me....bless him! So we spent Friday together which was real nice. He told me that he sneaked off campus....then he's like 'you see how important you are to me?' aww bless him...I did go on about how much I missed him, but I didn't want him to do anything to get himself in trouble...if he got caught he would have been fined and for someone as careful about money as he...that's a big deal.Why do I feel special that he'd risk all that for me???
Was up at the crack of dawn on Saturday (4am to be precise) cos I was heading to France for the day, so I didn't spend Saturday with him....instead I was with the fam....it was a pretty cool day out-nothing overly fancy! Got home at around 8....just missed Soldier which I was less than impressed about, but hey-that's how the cookie crumbles.
Monday, 5 November 2007
BORED!!!!
I'm soooooooo bored! Right now, I'm at my house watching soaps bored out of my friggin head! There's nothing to do, no money to go anywhere...it's all crap!! Soldier's at his Army base.....not seeing him til Friday evening....which feels like centuries away....
Sitting here thinking about what I'm gonna do for my birthday...*sigh* getting older sucks! I ain't got no money to do it big...I don't think I even want to (do it big)
I've got a headache-I think I'll stop moaning long enough to drag my ass to bed! Hope you guys are having a better Monday than I!
Sitting here thinking about what I'm gonna do for my birthday...*sigh* getting older sucks! I ain't got no money to do it big...I don't think I even want to (do it big)
I've got a headache-I think I'll stop moaning long enough to drag my ass to bed! Hope you guys are having a better Monday than I!
Friday, 2 November 2007
Conversation With Soldier
Whilst watching ‘Disappearing Acts’ the other day with Soldier, I thought I’d enquire how he felt about me, and us…..
Me: What do you want for us?
Him: I want us to be happy…be together…
Me: Are you happy?
Him: Yep…very happy
Me: Do you see us together in 30 odd years?
Him: Yep-We’ll get married, and I’ll take care of you, buy us a house, and have kids….
Me: Ok….so um, how do you feel about me?
Him: I’m in love with you
Me: *Stunned silence*
*After about a min of stunned silence *
Me: What you say?
Him: I’m in love with you. I’m really happy with you…I want us to be happy together
Me: *silence*……
Me: So you’re saying you’re in love with me??
Him: Yeah-I am
*He leans over and hugs me*
Me: Um….right…..ok……
Yeah…um….wasn’t ready for those lyrics…I didn’t say anything after that, we just kinda fell back into the movie….I like him a whole lot…but I don’t think I’m at the love stage….I’m in deep-like with him right now. Yeah, um, why did I ask? I dunno…..but honestly, that response I was NOT expecting....dunno what I was expecting…but it wasn’t that.
Tonight I’m introducing him to Nando’s…..might even go and see some fireworks display at the park later….Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
Me: What do you want for us?
Him: I want us to be happy…be together…
Me: Are you happy?
Him: Yep…very happy
Me: Do you see us together in 30 odd years?
Him: Yep-We’ll get married, and I’ll take care of you, buy us a house, and have kids….
Me: Ok….so um, how do you feel about me?
Him: I’m in love with you
Me: *Stunned silence*
*After about a min of stunned silence *
Me: What you say?
Him: I’m in love with you. I’m really happy with you…I want us to be happy together
Me: *silence*……
Me: So you’re saying you’re in love with me??
Him: Yeah-I am
*He leans over and hugs me*
Me: Um….right…..ok……
Yeah…um….wasn’t ready for those lyrics…I didn’t say anything after that, we just kinda fell back into the movie….I like him a whole lot…but I don’t think I’m at the love stage….I’m in deep-like with him right now. Yeah, um, why did I ask? I dunno…..but honestly, that response I was NOT expecting....dunno what I was expecting…but it wasn’t that.
Tonight I’m introducing him to Nando’s…..might even go and see some fireworks display at the park later….Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
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